Idyllic Thoughts

I have disowned God. Yes, I do not need God. I don't say I believe or disbelieve in the existence of God, because I don't care. It may seem the height of arrogance and ego to be telling this. But I do not think most of us who pray to God do so because of a respect for his powers or goodness... Most of us pray because we would want a good job, beautiful spouse, and good life. I don't think we get them by praying to God, if the saying that everything is pre-ordained is true. We can not change what is bound to happen by praying to God. Then praying to God for granting wishes is useless, because it cannot happen. I don't need God because praying to him neither gives me mental peace, nor grants my wishes. I don't need a placebo. I don't need an imaginary straw to clutch when I am drowning, I need a real one. Human beings are real straws to each other.

"When heights are long and friends are few I sit on my window and think of you A silent whisper and a silent tear With all my heart I wish you were here ...........................I miss you." I don't know who wrote it. But I love it.

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player, that struts and frets his hour upon the stage, and then is heard no more, it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing. -Shakespeare in Macbeth

Ayn Rand says of Love, "That love is reverence, and worship, and glory, and the upward glance. Not a bandage for dirty sores. But they don't know it. Those who speak of love most promiscuously are the ones who've never felt it. They make some sort of feeble stew out of sympathy, compassion, contempt and general indifference, and they call it love. Once you've felt what it means to love as you and I know it-the total passion for the total height- you're incapable of anything else." I read these lines when I was going thru the comments for my editorials. It was quoted by myself. But I just wanted to remember it again.

I once read somewhere that every relationship has an expiry date. Of course some endure, but they just have longer shelf life. Others rot from the inside. Some are kept chemically alive. But aren't relationships beautiful? At least until the expiry date nears. And the end is really horrifying. I fear the death of any relationship as much as I fear the death of knowledge. Yes, knowledge too dies, sometimes. In a similar way, every place too has a saturation point. After you reach the saturation point at that place, work, home or anywhere, you should not be there. Being there would be like chewing on stale, toughened bread- tasteless, dangerous and dragging.

Love has multiple dimensions. It has a kaleidoscopic beauty. Have you ever looked inside a kaleidoscope? Its colours and patterns are amazing. Its possibilities are immense. I believe love is the only emotion that looks beautiful from every angle, even through the wet eyelashes of separation.

Most people say that women care very much about their looks, and dress to please others. Maybe true. I don't know about other women. But I always dress for my satisfaction. Looking beautiful is quite different from feeling beautiful. I dress to feel beautiful from the inside and don't normally care what others comment on my looks. I honestly don't get satisfaction or feel happy by compliments unless I feel comfortable in my dress, make-up (which I wear very rarely) and personality. Isn't it necessary for us to feel the beauty from inside rather than outside? I feel beautiful when I walk in the evening breeze silently submerged in my thoughts even in the midst of chaos, dirt and crowd. I feel beautiful when I sit silently on a rock looking down at the humanity or up at the eternal sky. I also feel beautiful when I write, when others read it and when people give more credit to my brains rather than my face. I feel the most beautiful when I read others' thoughts which...