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ಆ ಮನೆ

ಮನೆಯ ಗೇಟಿನ ಮೇಲೆ ತಲೆಯಿಟ್ಟು ಎಡಗಡೆ ನೋಡಿದರೆ ಆ ಹಸಿರು ಬಣ್ಣದ ಹೆಂಚಿನ ಮನೆ ನನ್ನ 13 ವರ್ಷ ಹಿಂದಕ್ಕೆ ತಳ್ಳುತ್ತದೆ. ಆಗ ಇನ್ನೂ ಪ್ರೈಮರಿ ದಾಟಿರದಿದ್ದರೂ ನನ್ನ ಮನಸಲ್ಲಿ ನನ್ನಷ್ಟು ಬುದ್ಧಿವಂತೆ ದೊಡ್...

Weeding, again.

Every time I weed the garden, I am filled with guilt. What right do I have to kill the plants which are not useful to us? I don't know if I'm repeating myself. But since every living being, including a weed, has life, how can I decide based on my perception of usefulness? That's how this world works. We decide what to stay and what to die on this earth. If something helps us, we keep it.

A weed's life

I planted some rose bushes, a few aloe vera and chrysanthemum plants. All of them died. Then I, very ambitiously, planted a butter fruit seed. It lost its life after growing to be a healthy plant of about my height when somebody decided it was a mere weed and stifled it with heaps of dry twigs and leaves. Thus ended my gardening. I wondered how weeds grew so abundantly without any added nutrition or care in the same soil. It was only yesterday that I could think of a reason. The weeds were free. They grew where they wanted, when they liked. No human conditioned their growth. The soil was theirs, the water and the sun. We plant a seed with love, take care of it with love. But I realise now that freedom is infinitely more necessary than love.

ಪಯಣ

ನಮ್ಮ ಪಕ್ಕದಲ್ಲೇ ಓಡಿ ಓಡಿಯೂ ನಮ್ಮನ್ನು ಮುಟ್ಟಲಾಗದೆ ಹಿಂದುಳಿದ ಮರಗಳು, ಒಂಟಿ ದೋಣಿಯಲ್ಲಿ ಕೂತು ಓಡುತ್ತಿರುವ ರೈಲನ್ನೆ ನೋಡುತ್ತಾ ತನ್ನೊಳಗೇ ಕಳೆದು ಹೋದಂತಿರುವ ಮೀನುಗಾರ, ಟ್ರೇನು ಯಾಕಿನ್ನು ಬರ...

Bougainvillea

Now I get to see bougainvillea very rarely. Once upon a time it grew in abundance in front of our home spreading a pink glow on our walls. To me, a child then, it was one of the pleasant wonders of nature. I loved the way the flowers took on an ethereal transparency. Then as we left that house, the memory of bougainvillea faded. When I saw it again a week ago, I remembered the mornings I had spent looking out of the window as dew settled on the pinks and greens of bougainvillea. I also remembered how I saw my husband for the first time when he was a teenager and I, a scrawny school girl.

Ride your back...

In my school, each classroom had an adage painted on the wall. All of them have abandoned me but for one which has stubbornly refused to give up on me. I would hunch over, defeated within myself. It was only when I walked in front of that classroom that my spine would stand straight and proud. I owe my escape from many moments of helplessness and sadness to that proverb. 'No one can ride your back unless it is bent' was what I learnt in that classroom. I learnt that no one can make you unhappy without your own willingness to be so.

New years

New years. New dreams. New resolutions. I find this hype just cliché. I remember Dec. 31 of 2015 well, as well as the day in 2014. Today is just another day. As will be the days all through the year. I have never made any resolutions till now. I know as everyone does that they will never be kept. I know too that life doesn't change overnight with the change in calendar. Ask any happy person, they will say they were happy yesterday and they were happy today. Ask any person who is hell-bent on being sad, they will see the change in calendar as just one more year to sigh.