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May

I will never forget May 2010. In a span of a week, I lost three persons close to my heart one after the other. When something becomes too much to bear, you'll just give up fighting and learn to bear it with a smile. And now, I have reached a point where I don't feel anything, neither good nor bad. But I am calm and I will remain so. It's the calm after the storm, it's more peaceful and empty.

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  1. ... you never loose anyone/anything really ... the moments of life you'd've shared with joy is aleady a part of your life eternally ... living blissfully is to create & share more of those pleasant moments with all ...

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