On most days I thought nothing ever happens in my life, that it is dull and stagnant. Now, since three months, it seems life is moving too fast. I feel I am on a roller-coaster which is throwing me to its sides; hope I won't fall off. And I am happy after a long time. They say no reason is needed for happiness, but you need a reason. There is a difference between being calm-happy enjoying a good breeze and exhilarating-happy for a reason. And I am experiencing the second one, which I hope lasts longer than a good breeze. It leaves you dazed, smiling at everyone. It makes you uncaring for criticism and tolerate even the meanest person. Wish there were more such days in everybody's life.
'Caught in a strange land in a net with other butterflies, I'm a caterpillar yet undecided to remain a caterpillar and perish or turn into a beautiful butterfly and live a life full of joy.' Readers don't laugh. But I came up with this one night recently when I was travelling in a train. I tossed and turned, not being able to sleep, upset over unexplainable things and frustrated over events not in my control. Then it occurred to me that our life and its usefulness depends on our decisions -- whether to remain a crawling caterpillar whose existence otherwise is either ignored by all and sundry or who is cursed for just being there and thrown out with a stick, or to develop wings of life and metamorphose into a beautiful butterfly whom everybody adores for its beauty and colour, for its flitting liveliness, for its service to the flower's pollination... I thought that I should be a butterfly, of service to others, but then again I thought, anyway, who really cares?
... if you could observe the movement of thoughts that creates the happy state, it could happen more often and always ...
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