When we surrender ourselves fully to something or somebody, be it god, human or a cause, it becomes quite difficult to tear ourselves from it. It is like a baby tearing itself from the womb of its mother, resulting in rupturing and bleeding of the womb wall. But does that surrender also make us blind to the outside world? Does the process of pulling ourselves away give birth to a new vision, life?
'Caught in a strange land in a net with other butterflies, I'm a caterpillar yet undecided to remain a caterpillar and perish or turn into a beautiful butterfly and live a life full of joy.' Readers don't laugh. But I came up with this one night recently when I was travelling in a train. I tossed and turned, not being able to sleep, upset over unexplainable things and frustrated over events not in my control. Then it occurred to me that our life and its usefulness depends on our decisions -- whether to remain a crawling caterpillar whose existence otherwise is either ignored by all and sundry or who is cursed for just being there and thrown out with a stick, or to develop wings of life and metamorphose into a beautiful butterfly whom everybody adores for its beauty and colour, for its flitting liveliness, for its service to the flower's pollination... I thought that I should be a butterfly, of service to others, but then again I thought, anyway, who really cares?
when life seems hopeless, more often after a long ego-trip, surrender is the only choice to begin a new birth ... if at all, one would become immune to all that hurts in the world at large! its rather essential to become blind & deaf to the world outside, to 'see & hear' the abundance inside. That's the real surrender ... to the immense energy & intelligence that comes from observing one's own voices & thoughts, the observer him/herself ...
ReplyDeleteSurrender to a person, cause or concept without awakening of awareness might as well be another ego-trip ... that's when it becomes difficult, painful, et al.